When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?”
“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”
Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you truly love me?”
He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.”
The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, "Feed my sheep. I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go." Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, “Follow me!” John 21:15-19
Sitting in the quietness of tonight. This passage ran through my mind and heart. How lucky and fortunate we are to be taken AS-IS. We have been bought already. I wait for true love and find it only in the Maker of my life. How many times has Jesus asked me if I love him? How many times have I hesitated? How many times have I jumped into his arms? I seek love, I seek you....
Thursday, February 24, 2005
I feel sick to my stomach tonight, kind of like I got kicked a few times, but not enough to really hurt me. I just saw Hotel Rwanda. I know that when this went on I was just a teen, but my heart and stomach are in pain from how the society I live in turned their backs on a whole country, a group of people, trying to live a normal life. It is times like these I hate the lifestyle and luxury that I have been given. I am grateful for it all, but it still hurts. I will have a rude awakening when I get to Africa this summer. It scares me, but not in a horrifying way.
Jesus answered, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” When the young man heard this, he went away sad, because he had great wealth. Then Jesus said to his disciples, “I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 19:21-23
I wish I felt no honor in the wealth of this world all the time. I wish I found honor and humility in the wealth of God more......
Jesus answered, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” When the young man heard this, he went away sad, because he had great wealth. Then Jesus said to his disciples, “I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 19:21-23
I wish I felt no honor in the wealth of this world all the time. I wish I found honor and humility in the wealth of God more......
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
POSERS, FAKERS, & WANNABES ---- Just picked up this book by Brennan Manning. Don't know how I feel about being real with myself and others. Seems I need to be though.
poser - n. a person who habitually pretends to be something he is not.
faker- n. one who fakes something.
wannabe - n. one who imitates the behavior, customs, or dress of an admired person or group.
Which one am I? Depends which day..... Which one are you?
poser - n. a person who habitually pretends to be something he is not.
faker- n. one who fakes something.
wannabe - n. one who imitates the behavior, customs, or dress of an admired person or group.
Which one am I? Depends which day..... Which one are you?
Monday, February 21, 2005
ON A LIGHTER NOTE......
I got to play capture the flag last night with my high school guys. Sometimes it is great to be a kid again and run around. That was the first time I played outside since church camp in eastern Illinois with those pesky jr. high kids. Oh the memories that can come back from a rousing game of capture the flag..... Last night showed me that I am still a kid at heart, even when I have felt disfunctional in all I do, I still know that a group of high school guys think I am cool and will let me be a kid with them anytime I want.
I got to play capture the flag last night with my high school guys. Sometimes it is great to be a kid again and run around. That was the first time I played outside since church camp in eastern Illinois with those pesky jr. high kids. Oh the memories that can come back from a rousing game of capture the flag..... Last night showed me that I am still a kid at heart, even when I have felt disfunctional in all I do, I still know that a group of high school guys think I am cool and will let me be a kid with them anytime I want.
It is hard for me to already imagine that I am not going to be around this summer. Not being able to spend weekends swimming and hanging out with friends. Not being able to do all the yardwork with my dad. Sounds like not so much fun to most, but that is a time that I get to spend with my dad and do stuff outside. One of the more difficult things that I am going to miss is the best 4th of July celebration where I live. I think that the most difficult part of missing out on this summer is going to be not talking to my family, more imporantly my sis on a regular basis. SIDEBAR -- I don't talk about my family much on here, but I do have the two greatest sister in the world. My older sis is my best friend, just the other night we had our usual night out of catching up and having a drink together. The younger sis, still in her own world, but she did just turn 21 and can now join Nicole and I for our nights out. They both are the best.
Now, back to what this summer is going to be like. I have been given the opportunity to be a part of a group that will be spending two months in Africa. It is overwhelming and freakin awesome at the same time to think about. Africa was never such a huge desire for me until about two years ago. You see, I was fortunate enough to have someone in my life at the time who had such a heart for reaching out to the country of Africa that in a way I began seeing things different for a country so far away. It has been a dream of mine to be able to do this and now that God has opened this door all I can do is say, "WOW and thank you." The fam is not a huge fan of this trip, but there is a beginnning and and end to this trip, so I will be coming home. Over the next few years though...... we will have to see what God has planned. So for now pray for the process of all that needs to be done to go well and without conflict. I will continue to update the whole process. Too bad I won't be able to blog in Africa.
Now, back to what this summer is going to be like. I have been given the opportunity to be a part of a group that will be spending two months in Africa. It is overwhelming and freakin awesome at the same time to think about. Africa was never such a huge desire for me until about two years ago. You see, I was fortunate enough to have someone in my life at the time who had such a heart for reaching out to the country of Africa that in a way I began seeing things different for a country so far away. It has been a dream of mine to be able to do this and now that God has opened this door all I can do is say, "WOW and thank you." The fam is not a huge fan of this trip, but there is a beginnning and and end to this trip, so I will be coming home. Over the next few years though...... we will have to see what God has planned. So for now pray for the process of all that needs to be done to go well and without conflict. I will continue to update the whole process. Too bad I won't be able to blog in Africa.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Leaving A Legacy
What kind of a legacy are you leaving today
by the words and the actions you say and do?
What will your husband or wife and your
children say were your strengths and
your weaknesses too?
Will your name be listed in God's Book
Or Life or on one of man's best selling lists?
If Jesus returned to earth tomorrow,
would you be happy or sad?
What have you done for God's Kingdom
on earth that will make others glad?
Have you stored up your treasures temporarily
on earth or forever inside Heavens gate?
Think about what kind of legacy you are
leaving today, because no one knows how
long they will wait.
These are words from a mom who recently joined our father in heaven after fighting cancer for seven years. She lived a life better than most preachers, teachers, and others I know. Sylvia left a husband and three and three kids who have shown more strength and confidence in God than I have in a long tome. She truly left this world of hurt and is dancing with the king right now. She will be missed by all, but someday soon we will all be together again. Her last wish to her husband was to die well. She did.
What kind of a legacy are you leaving today
by the words and the actions you say and do?
What will your husband or wife and your
children say were your strengths and
your weaknesses too?
Will your name be listed in God's Book
Or Life or on one of man's best selling lists?
If Jesus returned to earth tomorrow,
would you be happy or sad?
What have you done for God's Kingdom
on earth that will make others glad?
Have you stored up your treasures temporarily
on earth or forever inside Heavens gate?
Think about what kind of legacy you are
leaving today, because no one knows how
long they will wait.
These are words from a mom who recently joined our father in heaven after fighting cancer for seven years. She lived a life better than most preachers, teachers, and others I know. Sylvia left a husband and three and three kids who have shown more strength and confidence in God than I have in a long tome. She truly left this world of hurt and is dancing with the king right now. She will be missed by all, but someday soon we will all be together again. Her last wish to her husband was to die well. She did.
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